Marcus travels a lot. It’s become only slightly easier to deal with as the years go by but, with that being said, every new house we move into brings with it a period of time in which I have to readjust. Mostly the readjustment period is me dealing with irrational fears of being home alone with the kids and something scary happening like an intruder or a fire but it has definitely resulted in a few sleepless nights.
I may or may not have mentioned the fact that I’m a worrier. Someone needs to be in this family. For example, I am the type of person that takes the tornado warnings seriously, gathering the children and pets and huddling in the bathroom. Marcus is the type of person who sees the warning and rolls back over to sleep. So, I don’t know if that’s a worrier problem or just a protective mother problem but either way I suppose it’s a problem when it affects my sleep (’cause Lord knows I love my sleep).
So, now I find myself having sleepless nights worrying about how I’m going to fall asleep the first night that Marcus is gone and I find myself alone in the new house. For one, the house has been vacant, and the whole area knows it, and I’m worried someone is going to try and get in. Secondly, I’m worried that the house is so old the wiring will set it on fire.
I’m also worried that the ghosts are going to get me or are going to mess with my girls Scratch that, I’m more worried about them messing with me…the girls can fend for themselves in this case. If something sits on my bed in the middle of the night, I’m out (and there’s a very real chance of this happening because we have a cat and I’m more of a react now ask questions later type of person). It’s every man for himself in the night if ghosts are involved.
There you have it. I can’t sleep for fear of not being able to sleep. That could be the very definition of crazy.